Friday, September 27, 2013

Update and Frankenstein Teaser

Hmm... what could I write about?
I have many things on my mind.

I could write about how I was upset a few days ago when a customer was being really rude to me and I wanted him to throw a punch at me so I could recreate the Lou scene from Fight Club...
But I got over that and moved on.
However, I may write about my idea of peoples perspective of pain later...

I could write about Wolfe, and how my version of the next generation is going along.
But I don't have a mystery case to work with yet...

I could write about the great news I got about finding a new place!  And that I got it for the price I asked for!  And that I am really REALLY excited about it!...
But I pretty much just did that with those three sentences.  Damn.

I could write the next part for SoF... but still working on dialog.

I could also write about me playing Borderlands and how I really been liking it...

Well... this is call 'Disturbed Will',so I guess I can talk about these posters that one of my customers brought in.  I have one customer that is a collector of old movie posters.  He brings in cool old posters like 'Mad Max', 'Grindhouse', 'The Graduate', 'Clockwork Orange', and 'Flash Gordon'.
But he also brings in these other posters...  including this one-


And I had a fit, cause I had watched this movie for my Disturbed List.
And it's bad...
Like, 'I really didn't want to talk about it' bad.
Mostly because of my intense hatred of Andy Warhol...
So I definitely got to talk about it.
Prepare for the sick and twisted next time (I'll try an censor as much as I can).
Because as the movie says-

"To know death, Otto, you have to fuck life... in the gall bladder!"

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Shades of Fear ~ 4 - Paralyze

     The Lusted have this gift that if you stare into their eyes that all of your desires will be known to them.  Some use that to there advantage and are able to get the most pleasure experience with a price, while others could use it to control weak minded people to do their bidding.  When a Lusted stared into your eyes, it was suppose to feel like pure bliss.  They were her weapons.  
     However, when emotions are high within either person of this stare, it could easily backfire.
     Captain could see her worry, her feelings, and her memories of when they met after the Shadow King disappeared.  He could remember in the smoke filled streets, he found her hurt and helped her recover.  He could remember her name and could even remember that she was a housewife to someone, but didn't know who.  She alone was the only one to call him by a name, but unfortunately, that was all she could remember.  They were close ever since, even after she started to turn into a Lusted.
     That's why she always blindfolded herself when she was near Captain.
     But as he stared into her eyes without flinching, he couldn't feel anything except her breathing and the smell of cherry lime from her still wet body.
     Then Evita started crying and had to turn away from his stare. 
     Captain sat up and held her tightly as she started to sob silently in his arms.  He was used to seeing her confident, flirty, and even vicious sometimes when she was hungry.  But he hadn’t seen her cry often.
     "Don't go," she repeated quietly to him.  "You don't need to go.  You don't need to know."
     "I don't," he whispered back.  "But I think you do."
     She looked at him as he stared back into her eyes and started to kiss her.
     And for that moment, all Captain could taste was cherry lime.

     Evita stayed until Captain started to get ready to leave, and then she quickly put on her rag like dress and started out the door before Captain could even get pants on.
     They said their usual goodbye when Captain went on trips like this.
     "Stay safe," she said.
     "I will, as long as you do." he replied as they smiled to each other.  And with that she was gone, once again headed to the streets. 
      Captain didn't worry that much when she left, since he knew she could handle herself.  But there was a slight nagging feeling that he should have done something more for her.  But that feeling passed as he started to dress and could feel the sore spots that were made from earlier last night.
      "Damn woman, you're going to be the death of me if the monsters don't get me first."  He said jokingly to himself.  It didn't cheer him up as much as he wanted it to. 
     Besides his usual heavy cloth jeans that he wore, he also had a simple black shirt laid with his ammo belt and holster for his gun.  He finished dressing by putting on his dark brown duster that was padded with leather protection for blades and bites, and headed out of the room and out into the street.
     Salric was outside of the Sleeper's Hotel, of course. He didn't have a cloak on this time, showing off his entire body cover in black shiny bandages, with an ammo belt across his chest and stomach.  Behind him was a long rifle that Captain knew he was a dead shot on. 
     "You look prepared Captain, but where's your gun?"
     "Got to pick it back up from Horace before we leave.  Still have my bullets?"
     Salric opened one of the pockets on his belt and pulled out four golden bullets.
     Captain frowned.  "Only four left?  If I knew that, I wouldn't have fired one yesterday," he said with his palm opened up.
     Salric dropped the last four into Captain's open hand.  "I still have a hard time believing you beat me at Rummy."
     "And I still can't believe you put them up for your bet when I raised you a few coins."
     "We all make mistakes, let's move on." 
     Captain looked around, searching for anyone else.  "The team?"
     "Everyone but Hembar will meet up with us."
     Captain was not shocked by this news.  Hembar's most useful feature was haggling and gathering info.  Besides, he was not in the best of shape to be coming on a trip like this.
      But everyone else was joining?  That was surprising to him.
      Captain knew that Salric would be coming, his fierce loyalty from being saved from the Walker's Pit and past friendship made sure of that.  He would follow Captain into the worst situations and never complain about a thing.  To Hell and back.   
      But the others didn't have such strong convictions...
      "Let's head over to Horace's real quickly and meet up with them."  Salric agreed and followed behind as Captain strode though the crowd and towards the shop.
   
      As they came into view of Gun Metal Heavy, Captain could see that the usually light that came from the shop fires was significantly dimmed down.  That was enough to speed Captain's walk towards the front of the store, where it was evident that there had been some sort of fight.  The wooden table near the front was broken in half, with tools sprawled all over the floor and walls, with dents, cuts, and holes everywhere.
      "Horace!"  Captain yelled out in worry.
      "Yo, Cap", came the usual heavy voice from the back of the shop, much to Captain's relief.  There was the sound of a shuffle, and Captain saw Horace slowly limp his way to the front with a clothed item.  Horace had looked better, his face now swollen with a broken nose, his piercings missing from his bloodied face.  It had looked like he was hit with a hammer to the face.
     "Jesus, Horace.  What the hell happened?"
     "Oh, just the hazards of the job, as usual."  Salric picked up a fallen chair nearby and presented it to Horace, who gladly accepted with a groan of pain as he sat down.  "But long story short, I think we are even."
      Captain, even though he has had his fair share of trouble from Horace, had actually taken a liking to large man and had even considered him a friend of some sort.  To see him beaten up like this irked him greatly.  "Give me the long story.  Who did this?"
       Horace sighed but then he gave that grin that people get when something really unbelievable happened and couldn't wait to tell what it was.  "A few days ago, some hulking metal guy that was ticking came by and gave me a bottle of black liquid, a lot of gold coins, and a letter."
     Captain gave a look to Salric, who gave one back, and then asked, "What was on the letter?"
     "Lots of fancy words, but basically it was payment to make the strongest chains I possibly could and cover them in this black liquid stuff.  Now I usually would like to know what stuff I'm given so that it would blow up in my face... literally.  Had one item that..."
     Same old Horace, he'll be fine, thought Captain, before he actually said, "Horace."
     "Sorry, off track.  Anyway, I took a close look at the bottle and the contents.  It looks just like regular ink until I tried to open it.  Then it started to move like it was bubbling.” 
     “Move?”
     “Yeah, it was fucking awesome.  Tried to grab me a couple of times, but after a few minutes it went limp.  I put it though a few tests first, like fire and some scrap metal.  It adhered to the metal like stink to a skunk.  And the fire… well it was completely unaffected.  In fact, I was tempted a few times to try and touch the flame to see if it was still hot.  Gave me an idea on how to fix a certain problem... Anyway, I made the chain links specific to the instructions and painted them completely with the stuff. Even with a second coating, I still had some left over."  He gave another grin before quickly groaning a laugh. "Well, that ticking guy came back with two more like him, which is scary in itself, and they display this wooden box."
     "Box?"
     "Yeah, box.  Not exactly a crate but bigger than a cube."  He gestured a square about the size of his chest.  Captain guessed it was probably around two by two feet.  "Seemed like just a regular wooden box at first.  But they place it on the table there," he pointed to the broken table, "and it started to move as well.  And at first I thought, 'Hey, there's something alive in that thing!'.  But one of the soldiers, this slimy green looking one, pulled a fucking spear and stabbed the box.  The large ticking one punched the green one and pulled the spear out, leaving this hole in it.  It stopped moving after that...
     "The ticking guy never spoke to me, but he had these papers that he wrote on.  And the first thing he wrote was 'Put the chains on it'.  Now, I have seen some weird stuff brought to me before, but not like this.  I brought the chains over and started to attach them to the box, mostly with bolts and screws.
     "As I was putting on the last chain links, that's when shit went wrong."
     Horace's face became cold and he gave a quick shiver.
     "When the last bolt was placed in, I could hear someone whimpering.  I looked around, but the soldiers and the ticking guy were silent, waiting for me to finish.  I took a look at the box and then looked through the hole and didn't see anything.  All that was inside was darkness, as black as the liquid they gave me for the chains.  I was about to shrug it off when I saw it.
     "It was an eye.  A bright white eye staring back at me.  And I felt paralyzed.
     "And I felt arms grab me and started pulling me towards the box.  And I heard a voice, the same one that was whimpering.
     "It told me to run.
     "And then the ticking guy pulled me away and sucker punched me in the face.  I woke up a few hours ago to all this." 
     Captain had a questioned expression, but didn't know what to ask.  So he went with the safe reply, "At least you're ok."
     “Well I can’t be too mad, I did find a silver lining in the shit storm of a mess.  Like that black gunk.”
     “What about it?”
     “Had some left over to fix another problem.”  Horace smiled with a bloody grin and unwrapped the clothed item he had to reveal a familiar shaped gun.
     It looked the same except for the color, which was now a dull metal black.
     Captain took it in his hand and gave a surprised look to Horace, "You didn't."
     Horace almost jumped out of his seat, "I so fucking did!  How about that for fire resistant!  I probably still wouldn't fire multiple shots though, but it's definitely more durable.  And now it even looks as awesome as..."  Horace looked around, and then had a sudden realization.  He limped across the room and started to look around the floor. 
     “Aw, damn it.”  Horace said as he kept looking around his messed up shop.  “They took my welding mask too.”    

     Evita walked calmly through the crowded streets of Main Street to reach her usual alley, gaining the much attention of men as she gave a wink in their direction. 
     She heard some woman scoff and whisper, “Whore.”
     Without missing a beat, she quickly turned to the woman and pinned her to the wall as she started to kiss her in front of the crowd.  She stopped right before the prissy woman was about to orgasm and smiled in a smug way.
     “Better a whore than a toy,” and she walked away with more people paying attention.
     Evita was more than confident about her abilities.  As long as she had her stare and, according to Captain, her smoking hot figure, she could take on anyone.  She as had her shape shifting, but that only worked as an illusion and didn't have any kind of power behind it.
     At first, when she turned into a Lusted, she felt so bad for Captain, who took really good care of her during the painful process.  Her drive and desire was so high that even after a whole night of being together, it wasn't enough.  She wished he was though... But with time and multiple incidences, she had gotten used to it.  
     As long as she has Captain to come to at the end.
     She walked into a quiet alley, away from the busy crowds of Main Street.  She was calm until she heard someone coming towards her.  At first she thought it was an onlooker who wanted to be an employer, so she looked around but saw no one.  However, the sound kept getting louder and louder.
     She turned and started to hurry to her usual spot, where she was at least protected by the other Lusted.  But the noise kept getting louder.  Like a person was walking closer to her in a set manner.
     She kept looking around, to give someone a stare or a yell.  Who was pursuing her?
     Then she realized it wasn't someone walking towards her. 
     It was ticking.  


     Captain and Salric made sure Horace was alright and started to head to the meeting place with the new gun now in Captain's holster.  And as they walked up, they noticed that Brant, Doc Jay, and Tusk were already there. 
     Brant was a quiet man, with straw blond hair and an thin athletic build.  He carried a large backpack that was almost larger than he was with ease.  He was whistling calmly as they strode forward and greeted him with a simple nod, who gave one in return.
     Brant, for lack of a better word, was the pack mule.  Ammo, secondary weapons, traps, and even food and water, he carried.  At first, it seemed as a joke, the group just kept loading him with stuff to make him say something in protest.  But he never did, and what started as a joke became a pure recognition of strength and skill.     

     Tusk Smith was large muscled Warrior that almost turned into a monster, with a thick build and large extended arms.  Captain met him in the Coliseum bashing over twenty people with a simple hand hammer and decided to take him for a job.  Now he was the muscle of the group, the first to go into a fight and the last to leave it.  He still carried his trusted hand hammer though, for both memory of where he came from and for emergency.  
     Doc Jay's real name was Jacob Simmons.  He was also from the Coliseum, but he used to be the healer for the contestants of the matches.  He was an older gentleman, with a dirty white coat that hid his automatic hand gun that seemed older than he was.  He was a crack shot, but still not as sharp as his insults.
     "Hello, gentlemen."  Captain said to all.
     Before anyone could say anything else though, an armored person started to rush over to them.  Like Abaddon, it was heavily armored, but instead of the bright metal colors, its armor was a bright blood red.  It also had lights and tubes attached to its shoulders, leading down to its hands.  The face mask though...  
     It reminded Captain of a cow or bull of some sort, with rounded breathing tubes for a nose and mouth.  Except for the left eye, which was scratched heavily, but no eyes could be seen inside. 
     However, instead of ticking like Abaddon, it smelt of heat and gasoline. 
     And anger.  Captain could feel anger come from this thing.
     Behind it were two black and white soldiers caring a board that had a black box on top of it.  It was chained down, with a hole showing on it's side.
 
 
 
End of Part 4 ~
Phew, finally.  Been busy at both work and looking for a new place to live, as well as packing to get ready and move.  Want to do more stuff, but life just keeps coming...
Till next time.



Saturday, September 14, 2013

Green Fire Test

Continued to work on part 4 of SoF and got so close to finishing it... but...
It still needs some editing.  Dialog and timeline is done, but still needs some fixing.

But it's a bad habit to not post something for the weekend, so what do I have?

Well I got green fire.










Yeah!
I also got some more cinammon flares that look very much like birds.

These are unedited, no Photoshop nor cropping, and not the best of the group.  I pulled these from the video I took while testing it out.  I think I can do a shoot with a model again (still an opening for you Susy, if we can ever have a schedule that works for both of us, damn work...), but unfortunately I will be busy looking for a new place to live.  Would like to find a roommate, but it looks like I will be moving somewhere by myself (which is actually ok with me).

Will be busy, but will still try to get stuff done.
Later.

Monday, September 9, 2013

Crimson Wing - The story of a dream

Before I go into this, there will be 3 types of fonts.  One will be like this, meaning that is is my editorial story and fill in for later.  The other will be like this, meaning that this is what I actually wrote down as soon as I woke up.  And the last will be this, where I pull interpretations that I had found while looking up meanings.  This was unlike any dream I had in a while and it shook me up a bit.  It wasn't scary or terrifying... just different.  And that could be a good thing...
 
I guess I should start with where this takes place. 

To see a city in your dream signifies your social environment and sense of community. If you dream of a big city, then it suggests that you need to develop closer ties and relationships. You are feeling alienated and alone. To dream that you are in a deserted city indicates that you feel rejected  by those around you.


To me, it looked like a metal steam punk like city (except cleaner) where two people are talking to each other.  One is a princess, who is giving off this arrogant feeling, but is tall, very pretty with dark blonde hair, and nicely shaped (I can't remember if she was well endowed, but I do remember her eyes... very nice eyes). 
The other was me...
And not me.
It was one of those third person dreams where I could be in first person, but could switch depending on what was happening.  I looked it up -

Your viewpoint or perspective in a dream can be insightful. First person, where you play ‘yourself’, shows that you have a fixed identity or character. This is particularly common in nightmares and anxiety dreams where you are quite caught up in your role as dream actor. The other most common perspective is third person where you witness the dream from an audience viewpoint as a disembodied watcher or point of awareness. Sometimes, though not always, this can point to feelings or situations which are not being felt or experienced (i.e. ‘you’ are ‘removed’ from the scene).


He (being both me and him) meets with a princess (I wrote down Cameal but I don't remember if that was her name ) of a over controlling king (as I later found out).

To see a princess in your dream represents the object of your affections or desires. 
If you are male and dream of a princess, then it represents your sister or an important female figure in your life. Perhaps you feel you feel that you have come to save the day. It also suggests your desires for the ideal woman. 


We talk for a bit, me acting very cocky (more than what I would usually do or say) and being a show off to the princess, who keeps trying to ignore me and acting like a brat who is bored and kinda spoiled.  I then shrug it off and start pushing her or chase her or she chases me as I try and get away (I can't remember) to the top of the water tower (it was built like a clock tower, with a waterfall coming from the middle of the building and leading into a water deposit that was clear and bright).  We get into an argument, her not wanting to be at the top and me just looking at the view.   I turned around, winked at her, and jumped off the water tower into a repo water supply.  
I remember swimming very calmly in the water (I'm not afraid of it, having been around it my whole life, and never have any drowning dreams as I either can hold my breath for a long time, or just breathe the water in controlled way).  And as I look up to the surface of the water and see the light shine down, I see the princess splash in and struggle.  I look at her in surprise because I didn't expect her to jump

To dream that you are diving into clear water indicates that you have overcome your obstacles and setbacks. You have a new sense of confidence. Things are looking up. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are trying to get to the bottom of a current situation or the root of your problems or feelings. It may also refer exploration of your subconscious. 
To see others diving in your dream represents psychological and emotional balance.

I pull her out of the water and get her safely out, and as we dry off, she sees that his unclothed body has scars and part of his/my leg is missing (the mid region thigh, which would be where my leg problems are at) and is replaced by some clear cover that is see through to the bone.

To see a scar in your dream symbolizes your struggles, painful memories and/or the bad feelings that has never entirely healed and are still lingering in your mind. Perhaps you are living too much in the past as it is influencing and effecting your present life. Alternatively, a scar represents deep-seeded insecurities which may be holding you back from accomplishing your goals.

And even though I don't think I was one, this could also imply.


To see or dream that you are a cyborg implies that you need to balance your objectivity with your personal feelings. It may also mean that you are too rigid in your thinking.

When she sees the leg, she has a flashback, that leads me to third person again.
And this is where it gets really story driven...

 The princess opens the window (topless, which makes her even more beautiful to me (yes, I'm sexist, but it's my own dream)), and looks outside to see a building on fire.  She talks to a soldier outside her window (covering herself up) and we find out that while she was having an affair with another person, a great disaster happened.  Apparently, she and her father were there to meet and greet with all the other royalty of the kingdoms, but there was one family that was attacked and almost destroyed.  The soldiers bring one of the injured close to the window and she looks at him, unable to see who it is because of a cloth on his face, but demanding that the soldiers take care of him
Then her father bursts in, seeing if she is alright, and sees the affair situation and they start an argument.  The window starts to close, and the injured man moves his cloth... and it's me.  And I whisper, "Thank you, my love."

Now, I personally don't know if that was when he fell in love or he had known her before and this cemented his feelings, but still...

We then return to current events, where we are still drying off.  And soldiers start to surround us

To see or dream that you are a soldier signifies discipline, structure, rigidity and your staunch attitude. You are imposing your opinions and feelings on others. Alternatively, a soldier means that you are preparing yourself to do battle over an issue. You feel the need to defend your beliefs, values and opinions.

As they pull her aside, her father the king (who is upset at all men dating or wooing his daughter). 
 
To see a king in your dream indicates that success and prestige are within reach. You will rise above your problems and adversities. The king is symbolic of power and control. Alternatively, the king symbolizes your father or some father figure. You are looking for support.

He tries to attack me, but while we talk as I dodge he says he sees me as honorable, wealthy, and 'kiss-assingly' polite.  I then reveal that I am royalty as well and show him my marked arm.

Crimson Wing, the banished cursed injured prince.

Now, I tried looking up the name, but I couldn't find anything that I would have read or seen to think of that name.  But I did find this stuff -

To dream that you are a prince suggests that you are feeling important and needed. You may be admiring your own accomplishments. 
To see a prince in your dream signifies your association with honor and prestige. You will be recognized for some task. Alternatively, it indicates your desires for romance.

To see birds in your dream symbolize your goals, aspirations and hopes. To dream of chirping and/or flying birds, represent joy, harmony, ecstasy, balance, and love. It denotes a sunny outlook in life. You are experiencing spiritual freedom and psychological liberation. It is almost as if a weight has been lifted off your shoulders
 Wings 
To dream that you have wings suggest new found freedom. You are on the right track and are soaring to success without limitations. Alternatively, the dream means that you are trying to escape from a difficult situation.To dream that you have the wings of an angel indicate your sweet, angelic quality. Or you may be in need of some protection from life's stresses and problems. To see the wings of birds in your dream indicates your desire for a freer way of life To see a cardinal in your dream represents vitality and happiness. It also may mean first place or your position in the front.

The king to hesitates and freeze up in either fear or disgust like he can't trust anyone.  
And I give a wicked smile.

And after a standoff, we leave for adventure.


I woke up, but then as I started to go back asleep, the next part started -



We meet an injured warrior on their travels (a blonde bandaged man). 

Warrior
To see or dream that you are a warrior represents your ability to confront life challenges.
Injury
To dream that you are injured suggests that you need to work on healing old wounds and hurts. You need to stop and slow down. Consider where or how you were injured for further significance.

And go to a school that seems odd.  We play poker with the students (or at least I do) and hear about a fight club that was going underneath the school, and that people where being forced to fight.
SO we investigate.

To dream that you are in school signifies feelings of inadequacy and childhood insecurities that have never been resolved. It may relate to anxieties about your performance and abilities. If you are still in school and dream about school, then the dream may just be a reflection of your daily life and has no special significance. 
Alternatively, a dream that takes place in school may be a metaphor for the lessons that you are learning from your waking life. You may be going through a "spiritual learning" experience. 
To dream that you are looking for a school suggests that you need to expand your knowledge and learning. To dream that you are at a new school means that you are feeling out of place in some situation. Or perhaps there is a new lesson that you need to learn.
To dream that you are running away from school means that you are not being receptive to new ideas and viewpoints. You have not learned from your past mistakes.
To dream that your childhood school is in ruins suggests that you are dwelling on some unresolved childhood issue. Alternatively, the dream represents the passage of time. You need to look toward the future instead of reliving the past.
To dream that you are playing poker suggests that a situation in your waking life requires strategy and careful planning. You need to think things through before carrying out your actions. Alternatively, the dream may also be a pun on "poke her". Are you trying to get a girl's attention?
To dream that you are in a fight indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life. If you are fighting to the death, then it refers to your refusal to acknowledge some waking conflict or inner turmoil. You are unwilling to change your old attitudes and habits.
To see others fighting in your dream suggests that you are unwilling to acknowledge your own problems and turmoil. You are not taking any responsibility or initiative in trying to resolve issues in your waking life.

The rest I write out here -

We get captured and placed under the school with an underground ring of gladiators that fight under harsh rules.  The injured warrior accidently knocks someone out and gets his team peinialized heavily for it.  The captain of the team ( a woman) comes back with food and is angry at the guy.  CW tried to sway the conversation by talking about the desk surrounded arena, but the captain challenges "the nerf boy". CW sees that the injuired warrior is willing and says "No" his first sigh of not being in control.
And then I woke up.




And that's all I got.  I could write more about it, but I need to keep going with the next part of Shades of Fear.  I haven't had another weird dream like that in a long time... and not one with so much narrative.
Till next time.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Poker Night 2 (while I work on part 4)

I am still writing part 4 of my story, but it still needs some touch ups.
I have the characters made and the story is finished, but it needs the small stuff... like description and dialog.
So what can I talk about while I'm still working on it?

...well there is this one time where I was in a poker game with Brock Samson, Claptrap, Ash, and Sam while GLaDOS was dealing...

Wait... let me back that up.

A few years ago, I played a game called "Poker Night at the Inventory".
It was... well... -


Awesome.  I loved it.
One of my favorite games that I didn't have to pay much for. (I got it for 5 bucks)
And it was great.  Hilarious lines of dialog between people you never expected to see together.

Years passed and while working on stuff, I got bored and wanted to try and download the new DuckTales re-newed game.  I thought I try and get it for X-box to go with my old games on it (like Monkey Island and such), but I found out it wasn't available yet... so what was I to do with $10 on my Xbox account?

I found this -


Yes...YES!  I"LL TAKE IT!!!!  
And I have enjoyed every minute of it.
It has tons of quotes that I like.  And a great example of how characters interact with each other.
Love it.